spick and span from head to toe
dressed in my nazi uniform
i dont know why i chose these drapes
they look at me like im insane

but they treat me like another person
in their tiny little lives
even thought they know id like to see them
die some day
how much will it take for you
to fucking understand
i dont want your help
i want you to just go away

i need you to
understand one thing about me
and that is that i
love you more every single day
but i need you to know
that you are oblivious
to the fact that
you are ugly on the inside

now they see who you are
doesnt that feel much more worse?
because now they have reason
to hang on in case you kill yourself

but you promise youre done with that
the cutting and burning and the leaking blood
you dont react as much as you did before
now you figure whats the point?

are you really
happy with what you are now?
done with sadness?
done with what you thought you always had?
i never meant
to be taken so seriously
now its all gone
you have taken it all away from me
turning blindly
my eyes dont see, they are too sore
didnt hear the ones
who have been through all of this before
its the fear for
what is coming on the nearby
its your anger with
the fact that you are still changing

always try to live this way
not knowing where to go

ill never try to live this way
id rather kill myself