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Manic-pulation
01:29
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why is it now
that it's back and it's real?
why is it now
that it doesn't matter anymore?
taken apart
taken away
how does it seem
that it's no longer me?
how does it seem
that it won't happen again?
doesn't make sense
throw it away
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Nazi Uniform
04:55
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spick and span from head to toe
dressed in my nazi uniform
i dont know why i chose these drapes
they look at me like im insane
but they treat me like another person
in their tiny little lives
even thought they know id like to see them
die some day
how much will it take for you
to fucking understand
i dont want your help
i want you to just go away
i need you to
understand one thing about me
and that is that i
love you more every single day
but i need you to know
that you are oblivious
to the fact that
you are ugly on the inside
now they see who you are
doesnt that feel much more worse?
because now they have reason
to hang on in case you kill yourself
but you promise youre done with that
the cutting and burning and the leaking blood
you dont react as much as you did before
now you figure whats the point?
are you really
happy with what you are now?
done with sadness?
done with what you thought you always had?
i never meant
to be taken so seriously
now its all gone
you have taken it all away from me
turning blindly
my eyes dont see, they are too sore
didnt hear the ones
who have been through all of this before
its the fear for
what is coming on the nearby
its your anger with
the fact that you are still changing
always try to live this way
not knowing where to go
ill never try to live this way
id rather kill myself
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Never Was, Never Will Be
06:24
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Shit's Stuck
02:02
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i look at your pretty face
in this dirty, messed up place
half asleep, half awake
why dont you just go away?
cuz i dont understand
what i put up with today
and im in no mood at all
for your fucking bullshit
it builds, it fades
god, i am so damn sorry
why did i say that to you?
take it back, throw it away
push it to the side today
but it seems its too late
you function on entire hate
i fucked up, did you wrong
its gone on for way too long
they circulate, triangulate
anger is a permanent trait
escapism is fine for some
but i want some real fun
i build, i fade
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Two Lovers
01:06
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they never were the kind to live for each other
never introduced them as mine
never had the soul to care for another
never wanted to show affection
now all alone and cold
with no one beside them
will they live their lives
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7. |
The Tyrant
04:54
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8. |
Universal Tumult
02:40
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josh sit down
josh listen
please dont touch me
i dont want your hand
i tried so many times before
but you never followed through for me
why not?
dont you care?
josh i know you
better than yourself
so dont just brush this off
you never listen
NO YOU DONT LISTEN
i only want to help
let me in
tell me
josh you know me
josh please help me
i have never cried before
it hurts too much
it will not stop
im all alone
and you are not
i miss you all the time
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9. |
Vicissitude (a ballad)
06:18
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Zopiclone
02:28
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who was at the door?
what did they want from us?
don't let them in tonight
our thoughts are our own
try to dream
they'll go away soon
but dont look out
the window
your eyes close, you've fallen down
don't get up, the ground's safer
it's not infested with
questions of self worth
sleep's an exit
from this
i heard a sigh
but it was just a thought
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M A T H West Covina, California
josh lopez's bedroom recording project. making songs and finite physical albums since sophomore year of high school.
